This hasn’t been the most fun weekend feeling wise, but, I’ve had a lot of fun. Corey and I spent a lot of quality time (it sounds funny to say quality time) together and got quite a bit of stuff done. Anyways, the weather has been nice but, it’s been windy and a lot of stuff has been kicked up so… I have allergies right now 
This has been a really awesome weekend. Good for me and my friends. I don’t really know whta I’m writing about here, just trying to keep up with posting.
Anyways, i wanted to thank everyone for their good wishes and for panties for the polka-dot project (scroll down to my other posts for info on that)
Oh and you can thank Mark Velasquez for this booty shot, he said I don’t post enough of them 
It was really fun and the staff and actors that I met were all really nice! It’s funny, I figured everyone would be extremely rude and stuck up but, the only rude stuck up people i met were the extras. Not all of them of course, but there were quite a few.
Guess you could say I learned a good lesson about attitude on set 
I’m just frustrated this week. To be completely honest, I’ve been on an anti depressant for the past 6 months because I get really bad mood swings but, I was reading up on the one I was taking and decided that I didn’t want to be taking it anymore.
I don’t want to have a drug control my mood… unluckily, the first 2-14 days off this drug are known to cause some serious withdrawal effects which, paired with some of the things I have been stressing about lately, is just not cool…
I’ve come to realize as of late that, I am a broke, lazy-ass. I’m the person that I talk shit about. There are so many things that I want to do in life and, I’ve barely done any of them.
Did anybody know that I love to act? That I love to sing?How about that, I’m actually GOOD at those two things?
The answer to the above is predominantly NO. You know why?
Because I don’t believe in myself. I don’t think I’ll succeed, so, instead of giving it a shot, I do nothing…
How absolutely and completely pathetic is that?
I use a program called Things(it’s an alternative to a day planner) and one of the things I’ve had on it for almost a month now is – Create an Etsy store and sell prints… I haven’t done that, because I don’t think anyone would actually buy them. I never try anything and that is why I hate myself.
I’m to scared to put myself out there and I’ll never get anywhere if I don’t. I’m wasting away, wasting my youth in a fucking room all by myself because I won’t walk out the damn door and make something out of myself.
I guess you could say that it’s good that I’ve taken the first step and gotten out of denial, the thing is, now I actually have to do something, which scares me ten times more than anything else ever has.
I’m constantly tired and nothing ever seems to fix it. Coffee, extra sleep, less sleep… I really hate deadlines when it comes to sleeping as well. If I got to bed at midnight and know I have to be up at 6 am, I can’t sleep… I know I have to be awake and somehow I get paranoid that I won’t fall asleep and then my paranoia becomes a self induced reality.
I guess you could say I have a love/hate relationship with it…
- Sleep
Well actually I got two in one package I’m super excited. One pair fit while the others were pretty big (running through the washer on high heat right now) . I’m hoping I have enough time tomorrow to take some shots in the pair that fits but this week has been so unbelievably busy that I’m just not sure if it will happen! Stay tuned because, I should have some shots up very soon!
So I was trying to take some more risky shots for Corey mixed in with the “Afterglow” shots for my Flickr stream.
In this shot, I was trying to get a close-up of my bum and such and happened to be wearing handcuffs… It is VERY hard to jump onto a bed in handcuffs. I face planted and hit the remote by accident which caused the camera to focus on my heel and snap the shot.
What really sucks is that my camera is broken… SO every time I’d take a shot I’d have to get off the bed, go over, pop it into manual snap a shot to pop the mirror back up (it gets stuck up every other shot) and then go try to get on the bed without face planting.
Let’s just say, I had a good laugh trying to take these particular shots
On another note: People have sent me a few messages asking what mini’s are so, here’s the answer:
Mini’s are miniature 2×2ish inch photos that I send out. I choose 2 random ones from my stack and send them to anyone who sends me a self addressed, stamped envelope. For those who want more than 2, they’re 75 cents each. I also send a thank you note to whoever sends me envelopes
To send me a SASE or something with polka-dots:
I got an e-mail from Zombiemoon- James on Flickr about his search for some panties for my new project- it went as folllows (posted with permission, of course):
“
So I went and got them today and what an adventure that was, the town I live in is pretty small by the mountains, we have a walmart and that’s about it. So I was looking around for them and I noticed a small old lady that worked there following me from a few racks over, I felt like frodo and gollum was following me, this was the start of what is know as the Lord of the Polka-dot panties. so I kept walking around looking and she was 10 steps behind me, how weird it was. finally she came to me and in a low voice said is there something I can help you with, I said yes I need polka-dot panties. she said are they for you? uh I was stuck I didn’t know what to say. So I told her the story and she looked at me with a scared look for a min. I thought of running screaming like a little girl with a skinned knee. but I held my ground and stayed. after the min she started to giggle, I kid you not, she was giggling at me. and then was by my side till we found the right ones. okay how fun was that, a lot of fun. I await the next adventure.
James
“
James- You totally rock my polka-dot socks!
If anyone wants to send me stories about their quest for polka dot panties that’d be awesome
For mini’s (send a SASE) or to send me some polka dot’s here’s my shipping address:
Yesterday before getting offline I posted up a random drunken ramble about people sending me polka-dot panties and, much to my surprise, the next day, I actually had a few e-mails asking for my address. I gave it out, curious as to whether or not anyone would actually send anything.
I’m not sure if anyone will but, I think it would actually be sort of fun if people did and I could make a photo project out of it- y’know? Whatever I get in the mail (panties or whatever) I have to use in a photo somehow. I’m pretty inspired right now to do it and it seems like a lot of fun . I guess I’ll find out in a few days if anyone will actually send me anything or, if no one actually goes through with it…
Size- small
boobies-34dd
Anyways if you read this and you’re thinking it might be fun to send something here’s my shipping address:
ALSO if you send a self addressed, stamped, envelopes I’ll send you back some mini’s
I’m starting up this blog for fun to share stuff I’ll figure out what to write etc. soon.
